Coffee and a Smoke

I woke up this morning with the automatic thought "coffee and cigarette". This thought always excited me. Sadly to say, it was what made me get out of bed every morning for years. It's what has made me not sleep passed noon. You can even go so far as to say that it has made me a morning person. (Gasp!) It was my breakfast of champions.

So I got out of bed and went to the coffee maker and stopped for a moment. It hit me that there wouldn't be a smoke. I panicked for a moment, not knowing what I was going to do. What was I supposed to do while I drank my coffee? For that moment, I had no idea. I went ahead and started the coffee. I guess I figured out what I was going to do. I was going to write this post. So here I am.

It really is a scary thing that I can't think of something to do when I am not smoking. I try to take a step back and try to think about what "normal" people do with their time. I even try to think way back to the time when I did not smoke 15 years ago. What did I do then? I remember. I do the same things that "normal" people do. The problem is that there has always been a cigarette attached to it. Whether it was before, during, or after; there was always a smoke to look forward to.

I've got to think of another game plan here. I need something new to look forward to.

I have to take the advice that I had gotten from someone yesterday. I just have to take each day minute by minute. Ride each craving until it is gone. They gave me the hope that it is only temporary. That the craving will pass. Minute by minute.

Minute by minute.

On to the next one.


Oh, and one more thing. If any of you guys have any suggestions for me, feel free to tell me! I can use all the help and support I can get.